I AM
Obnoxious. And that's really 'bout all you needa know.
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Two-way road.
Things just keep getting better, and it just keeps getting worse. Heh.
SPORTS DAY. My first ever in TPJC, and man did i enjoy it! Went wild with the people of FALCON house. Screamed and cheered all my guts out. Today i learnt how to play with the spinning thing, CHE LING i think, found out that there's this genius in TPJC who plays the piano REALLY FANTASTICALLY, learnt how to blade on my own for about an hour or so, attempted to climb the rock wall but pretty much failed miserably. (: Really took my mind off everything that's been going on lately, and even though it's still somewhere up there in my head, at least i'm distracted and ain't thinking as much about it.
Ethel finally woke up ( after I did all those wacky things on my own cause she was SLEEPING like a PIG in the council room ;p ). Oh yes i forgot to mention that we can finally enter the council room. (: But it's kinda smelly... HAHAHA. Anyway, we wentt bubbling and ended up pigging out like crazy. We ordered SO MUCH food and had 2 cups of bubble tea each. It was CRAZY. But it was good 'cause we both deserve it after going through so much of crap for the past few weeks. Talked alot, wanted to do crazy stuff but didn't in the end. Oh well, there's always next time (: I LOVE THAT BABE.
Finally went to the place, my place, my obscure keeper of a thousand secrets. Met up and hung out with Bryan Lim at the playground till about 1830. Updated him on all the stuff that was going on, poured all my complains and thoughts out. I like hangin' out with Bryan, and i enjoy telling him stuff 'cause he listens. He really LISTENS. He doesn't just listen selectively, or space out halfway, or tells me what to do, or just keep telling me what he thinks and not listen to what i'm trying to say. He bothers to LISTEN. Then give opinions, and advice if any. That's really rare 'cause not many guys these days can do just that. Thank you Bryan Lim, for being such a great listener, and for being there for me(: .
But while i was at the playground, (within half an hour actually) I got 24 mosquito bites on my legs! YES i COUNTED. 'Cause i got a shock, there were SO MANY. I looked down and saw red spots emerging all over, man ethel says i'm gonna get dengue fever soon. Yes, Thanks babe. lol. Oh things just keep getting better, techinically they can't get any worse 'cause it's pretty much at the maximum. I can't wait for tomorrow, it's gonna be another crazy day 'cause the I'll be hangin' out with the band and friends! (: awesome!
The thing that's weighing my mind now is. I miss my buddy, i miss the buddy i knew. I miss a good friend.
SPORTS DAY. My first ever in TPJC, and man did i enjoy it! Went wild with the people of FALCON house. Screamed and cheered all my guts out. Today i learnt how to play with the spinning thing, CHE LING i think, found out that there's this genius in TPJC who plays the piano REALLY FANTASTICALLY, learnt how to blade on my own for about an hour or so, attempted to climb the rock wall but pretty much failed miserably. (: Really took my mind off everything that's been going on lately, and even though it's still somewhere up there in my head, at least i'm distracted and ain't thinking as much about it.
Ethel finally woke up ( after I did all those wacky things on my own cause she was SLEEPING like a PIG in the council room ;p ). Oh yes i forgot to mention that we can finally enter the council room. (: But it's kinda smelly... HAHAHA. Anyway, we wentt bubbling and ended up pigging out like crazy. We ordered SO MUCH food and had 2 cups of bubble tea each. It was CRAZY. But it was good 'cause we both deserve it after going through so much of crap for the past few weeks. Talked alot, wanted to do crazy stuff but didn't in the end. Oh well, there's always next time (: I LOVE THAT BABE.
Finally went to the place, my place, my obscure keeper of a thousand secrets. Met up and hung out with Bryan Lim at the playground till about 1830. Updated him on all the stuff that was going on, poured all my complains and thoughts out. I like hangin' out with Bryan, and i enjoy telling him stuff 'cause he listens. He really LISTENS. He doesn't just listen selectively, or space out halfway, or tells me what to do, or just keep telling me what he thinks and not listen to what i'm trying to say. He bothers to LISTEN. Then give opinions, and advice if any. That's really rare 'cause not many guys these days can do just that. Thank you Bryan Lim, for being such a great listener, and for being there for me(: .
But while i was at the playground, (within half an hour actually) I got 24 mosquito bites on my legs! YES i COUNTED. 'Cause i got a shock, there were SO MANY. I looked down and saw red spots emerging all over, man ethel says i'm gonna get dengue fever soon. Yes, Thanks babe. lol. Oh things just keep getting better, techinically they can't get any worse 'cause it's pretty much at the maximum. I can't wait for tomorrow, it's gonna be another crazy day 'cause the I'll be hangin' out with the band and friends! (: awesome!
The thing that's weighing my mind now is. I miss my buddy, i miss the buddy i knew. I miss a good friend.
Labels: let live.
ambiguity revealed 5:36 AM
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
joy, disappointment and sheer exhaustion.
Today, was definitely the BEST day in three long weeks.
It's amazing don't you think? How you can find out so much about different people within a few days, a few weeks. I daresay the Priya makes a really good Secretary, and Abby, Head of Operations and all the rest too. (: Council term has finally, officially kicked off! I love the 23rd council, no matter what people say about us, no matter what people think of us, no matter the mistakes we make. 'Cause we're ONE COUNCIL, and I love them all for who they are!
I'd post the pictures when i have them, but for now we just gotta wait (:
And about that other thing, i'm pretty much disappointed? More disappointed than angry. More disappointed than anything else. But whatever, I'm not gonna let it spoil my best day in three weeks!
It's amazing don't you think? How you can find out so much about different people within a few days, a few weeks. I daresay the Priya makes a really good Secretary, and Abby, Head of Operations and all the rest too. (: Council term has finally, officially kicked off! I love the 23rd council, no matter what people say about us, no matter what people think of us, no matter the mistakes we make. 'Cause we're ONE COUNCIL, and I love them all for who they are!
I'd post the pictures when i have them, but for now we just gotta wait (:
And about that other thing, i'm pretty much disappointed? More disappointed than angry. More disappointed than anything else. But whatever, I'm not gonna let it spoil my best day in three weeks!
ambiguity revealed 6:33 AM
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
what am i suppose to do?
I am really unsure of how to react. I appreciate your gift from the bottom of my heart but, i have no idea how am i to react. There's this sense of happiness, bitterness, guilt, longing, regret, pain. Am i just too blind to see what's right in front of me?
ambiguity revealed 9:01 AM
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Friday, April 25, 2008
Friday, April 25, 2008
Tisbury lane
She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do
Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one who will be constantly everything you need
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
YeahShe lives on Tisbury Lane (2x)
I was so nasty to someone today, and i do feel slightly guilty for being so mean. Oh well, I didn't mean to be. I did say i was feeling highly irritable. But yeah, i still feel um, bad, about it. Sorry. Had a heart to heart talk with xiaotian, left my pencil box in school ( OH NO! ), played truth or dare and did all sorts of stupid/ funny stuff with jerome ethel yongdon and a few others too. Had fun. Laughed.
I can't wait for tomorrow morning to come! Then i can get the round-fragile-nice i ain't got no idea what it is thing from mingxun!
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do do do
Do do do do
Do do do
Do do
Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one who will be constantly everything you need
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
YeahShe lives on Tisbury Lane (2x)
I was so nasty to someone today, and i do feel slightly guilty for being so mean. Oh well, I didn't mean to be. I did say i was feeling highly irritable. But yeah, i still feel um, bad, about it. Sorry. Had a heart to heart talk with xiaotian, left my pencil box in school ( OH NO! ), played truth or dare and did all sorts of stupid/ funny stuff with jerome ethel yongdon and a few others too. Had fun. Laughed.
I can't wait for tomorrow morning to come! Then i can get the round-fragile-nice i ain't got no idea what it is thing from mingxun!
ambiguity revealed 8:03 AM
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
can't you see?
Don't ask me questions, you know i don't want to answer.
Don't speak those words, you know i don't want to hear.
Don't make me scream out the secrets deep within.
Don't make me cry, in front of your eyes.
This night i cried, with someone beside.
This night i cried, under the streetlights.
This night i cried, with all my might.
This night i cried, like how a fool would cry.
Ditch that frown and bed that smile.
These words i spoke seem so foreign now.
If no one lied or if all lies died
Imagine what this world could be,
Yes imagine what this world could be like.
Even without all that,
This something else's weighing my heart down.
Everyday, every moment, it gets worse.
But i know i have to keep it inside.
Not let anything come to light.
For this shallow though i harbour must never be heard of.
'Cause it'd be worse to see you people unhappy.
Thank you demon, "ditch that frown and bed that smile" yes i'll try to stick to my words. Thank you Ethel, you're always around. Thank you Charissa, " keep smiling, cause you'll never know who's falling in love with your smile every moment." I will i will i will. Thank you Donna, for listening to my innermost thoughts without batting eyelid, without telling me what i should do. Thank you Bryan, " it's okay i'll be there for you." I know you will be. I trust that you'll always be as much as you can. Thank you Eunice bimbo, for the ever-comforting hug. Thank you wintrice " compose yourself, smile, and just act like everything's okay." Yes, that's what i'll do. Thank you Livert for your care and concern, (and for your winning drumsticks too.). Thank you CheeKeen, for the nice words that you said. Thank you phuangkenglee, for trying to cheer me up when you knew i was down. Thank you vivien for helping me stay strong and get through the rehearsal without shedding a tear. Most of all, thank you bus buddy, for your shoulder. for your comfort. for your makin' me cry out loud into the night. Thank you bus buddy. I don't know if i missed anyone out. If i did, thank you to you guys too.
I'm just shocked at how things are so different, behind those masks you people put on.
I'm just unable to get a grip of myself.
I will, 'cause i promised demon and ethel that i'd be fine; in just awhile.
I love you guys. Thank you.
Don't speak those words, you know i don't want to hear.
Don't make me scream out the secrets deep within.
Don't make me cry, in front of your eyes.
This night i cried, with someone beside.
This night i cried, under the streetlights.
This night i cried, with all my might.
This night i cried, like how a fool would cry.
Ditch that frown and bed that smile.
These words i spoke seem so foreign now.
If no one lied or if all lies died
Imagine what this world could be,
Yes imagine what this world could be like.
Even without all that,
This something else's weighing my heart down.
Everyday, every moment, it gets worse.
But i know i have to keep it inside.
Not let anything come to light.
For this shallow though i harbour must never be heard of.
'Cause it'd be worse to see you people unhappy.
Thank you demon, "ditch that frown and bed that smile" yes i'll try to stick to my words. Thank you Ethel, you're always around. Thank you Charissa, " keep smiling, cause you'll never know who's falling in love with your smile every moment." I will i will i will. Thank you Donna, for listening to my innermost thoughts without batting eyelid, without telling me what i should do. Thank you Bryan, " it's okay i'll be there for you." I know you will be. I trust that you'll always be as much as you can. Thank you Eunice bimbo, for the ever-comforting hug. Thank you wintrice " compose yourself, smile, and just act like everything's okay." Yes, that's what i'll do. Thank you Livert for your care and concern, (and for your winning drumsticks too.). Thank you CheeKeen, for the nice words that you said. Thank you phuangkenglee, for trying to cheer me up when you knew i was down. Thank you vivien for helping me stay strong and get through the rehearsal without shedding a tear. Most of all, thank you bus buddy, for your shoulder. for your comfort. for your makin' me cry out loud into the night. Thank you bus buddy. I don't know if i missed anyone out. If i did, thank you to you guys too.
I'm just shocked at how things are so different, behind those masks you people put on.
I'm just unable to get a grip of myself.
I will, 'cause i promised demon and ethel that i'd be fine; in just awhile.
I love you guys. Thank you.
Labels: maybe it's time.
ambiguity revealed 5:22 AM
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
sick and tired of it all
I can't believe the awful truth.
Now, i'm afraid.
Of caring, of knowing, of bothering, of loving, of believing, of everything.
If that's what you people perceive me to be, i tell you now: you think way too highly of me. Because, no performer, no actor/actress, has the endurance and capacity to put on an act for such a long period of time. An act that i can gain absolutely nothing out of.
I do not need a reason to give up on faith.
But i must say, i'm thankful. For people that chose to trust and believe in me for who i am. People who remain unwavered by all the unkind words that others have said. People who are always there for me when i need them most. People like Ethel, Charissa, RussellChan, BryanLim, Xiaotian, Demon and others. I swear, i'm truly thankful for people like you guys, people that are truely, TRUE.
I don't know where i can go from here, i don't see any direction i can head towards. Everything seems to be moving so fast, at bullet speed, yet my world seems to have come to a standstill too. I'm unsure of every step i want to take, every move i wanna make. 'Cause it seems no matter how true my intentions, it ends up being viewed in another way.
I don't know. I just hope everyone cheers up soon. Forget all the heartache, all the betrayal, all the pain. I don't know, everyone, cheer up soon.
Now, i'm afraid.
Of caring, of knowing, of bothering, of loving, of believing, of everything.
If that's what you people perceive me to be, i tell you now: you think way too highly of me. Because, no performer, no actor/actress, has the endurance and capacity to put on an act for such a long period of time. An act that i can gain absolutely nothing out of.
I do not need a reason to give up on faith.
But i must say, i'm thankful. For people that chose to trust and believe in me for who i am. People who remain unwavered by all the unkind words that others have said. People who are always there for me when i need them most. People like Ethel, Charissa, RussellChan, BryanLim, Xiaotian, Demon and others. I swear, i'm truly thankful for people like you guys, people that are truely, TRUE.
I don't know where i can go from here, i don't see any direction i can head towards. Everything seems to be moving so fast, at bullet speed, yet my world seems to have come to a standstill too. I'm unsure of every step i want to take, every move i wanna make. 'Cause it seems no matter how true my intentions, it ends up being viewed in another way.
I don't know. I just hope everyone cheers up soon. Forget all the heartache, all the betrayal, all the pain. I don't know, everyone, cheer up soon.
ambiguity revealed 8:16 AM
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
reality shock
Too shocked by the cold hard facts about everything that has been going on to post much. This is such bullshit.
ambiguity revealed 7:25 AM
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Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I am strong.
'Cause my sanity''s what's keeping me safe from myself.
ambiguity revealed 6:40 AM
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Sunday, April 13, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
back to normal.
This is GOOD. (:
Thank you Ethel, Thank you Russell, Thank you Nathan, Thank you claudia, Thank you Demon. Lookin' back now it's really pretty silly. ( yes i know i know demon. ) In fact it was pretty much, unecessary. You guys are in for tons of trouble now though, 'cause the crazy me is back! Hahahaha.
Now as i walk away, i know i won't turn back again.
Someone help me with math please. And revise econs with me as well.
Thank you Ethel, Thank you Russell, Thank you Nathan, Thank you claudia, Thank you Demon. Lookin' back now it's really pretty silly. ( yes i know i know demon. ) In fact it was pretty much, unecessary. You guys are in for tons of trouble now though, 'cause the crazy me is back! Hahahaha.
Now as i walk away, i know i won't turn back again.
Someone help me with math please. And revise econs with me as well.
ambiguity revealed 3:55 AM
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Teardrops on my guitar.
He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
That I want and i'm needing, everything that we could be.
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything (no not really) that i have to live without.
He talks to me, i laugh 'cause it's so damn funny.
How i can't even see, anyone when he's with me.
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all i think about at night.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car i keep singing don't know why i do.
He walks by me, can he tell that i can barely breathe.
And there he goes, so perfectly.
The kind of flawless i wish i could be.
She'd better hold on tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The only thing that keeps me wishin' on a wishing star
He's the song in the car i keep singing don't know why i do.
So i drive home alone, as i turn out the light,
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one that's got enough of me to break my heart.
He's the song in the car i keep singing, don't know why i do.
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough.
And he's all i needa fall into.
You look at me, i fake a smile so you won't see.
That I want and i'm needing, everything that we could be.
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything (no not really) that i have to live without.
He talks to me, i laugh 'cause it's so damn funny.
How i can't even see, anyone when he's with me.
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all i think about at night.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car i keep singing don't know why i do.
He walks by me, can he tell that i can barely breathe.
And there he goes, so perfectly.
The kind of flawless i wish i could be.
She'd better hold on tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
The only thing that keeps me wishin' on a wishing star
He's the song in the car i keep singing don't know why i do.
So i drive home alone, as i turn out the light,
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one that's got enough of me to break my heart.
He's the song in the car i keep singing, don't know why i do.
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough.
And he's all i needa fall into.
You look at me, i fake a smile so you won't see.
ambiguity revealed 10:06 PM
eyelashes.
All i want now is to ride the Singapore Flyer.
All i want now is to receive about 20 helium balloons.
All i want now is to eat mushrooms.
All i want now is to meet up with Lorri for lunch.
All i want now is to stop coughing cause it's irritating.
All i want now is to watch the stars alone.
All i want now is to think of an amusing speech.
All i want now is to draw rainbows with stars again.
Forget yesterday; cause today i'm headin another way. (:
All i want now is to receive about 20 helium balloons.
All i want now is to eat mushrooms.
All i want now is to meet up with Lorri for lunch.
All i want now is to stop coughing cause it's irritating.
All i want now is to watch the stars alone.
All i want now is to think of an amusing speech.
All i want now is to draw rainbows with stars again.
Forget yesterday; cause today i'm headin another way. (:
ambiguity revealed 8:08 AM
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Friday, April 11, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
all this pretence is killing me inside.
Demon makes me laugh. He's hilarious(ly dumb). Heh.
Talkin' to him really made me realise lotsa stuff, that i didn't know of, that i didn't think could be. It's surprising, but more disappointing than anything else. People just can't be real, honest and trustworthy can they? No one seems to be able to keep their mouths shut, even people who consider themselves trustworthy.
That aside, TSD really makes me forget all my troubles for just a while. Today i was utterly, ridiculously, embarrasingly BLUR during TS practical. To the extent that i'm now known as the BLUR one. The BLUR murderer. ( Hey i didn't mean to kill you all okay! i did save you guys in the end! hahaha. ) Shawn was being mean by saying that it was gonna be a quick deathmatch between henry and I 'cause everyone expected me to die from blur-ness ( which i DID, TWICE. ). It was hilarious though. Ethel and Henry's warm up exercise was fun too! I think i almost pulled out kevin's hair when trying to figure out who he was. And wayne tugged at my ponytail and literally distorted my features with his hands when he was trying to figure out who i was. Sounds scary? well it's TSD!
I realised that i gave up the wrong stuff for the wrong stuff. Am i even making sense? Well, i've been wasting my time for too long and hopefully next monday will save me from wasting my life away. Today was tiring, no, exhausting.
This is why i'd never tell
and this is why i'm livin' in hell.
There's gotta be a Heaven out there, somewhere
I thought there's supposed to be a God that cared.
It's painful now but just for awhile
for time will ease the pain somehow.
(Though the thought of your face
still leaves me in a daze.)
I'm tired of playing this game called Pretend.
'Cause it's left me feeling pained and drained.
As i walked that route today
it dwelled on me, it was but a fool's play.
Forget it all, that's what people say.
Just let things be, oh come what may.
And as i pen these words thy day
I pray that i may find my way.
Talkin' to him really made me realise lotsa stuff, that i didn't know of, that i didn't think could be. It's surprising, but more disappointing than anything else. People just can't be real, honest and trustworthy can they? No one seems to be able to keep their mouths shut, even people who consider themselves trustworthy.
That aside, TSD really makes me forget all my troubles for just a while. Today i was utterly, ridiculously, embarrasingly BLUR during TS practical. To the extent that i'm now known as the BLUR one. The BLUR murderer. ( Hey i didn't mean to kill you all okay! i did save you guys in the end! hahaha. ) Shawn was being mean by saying that it was gonna be a quick deathmatch between henry and I 'cause everyone expected me to die from blur-ness ( which i DID, TWICE. ). It was hilarious though. Ethel and Henry's warm up exercise was fun too! I think i almost pulled out kevin's hair when trying to figure out who he was. And wayne tugged at my ponytail and literally distorted my features with his hands when he was trying to figure out who i was. Sounds scary? well it's TSD!
I realised that i gave up the wrong stuff for the wrong stuff. Am i even making sense? Well, i've been wasting my time for too long and hopefully next monday will save me from wasting my life away. Today was tiring, no, exhausting.
This is why i'd never tell
and this is why i'm livin' in hell.
There's gotta be a Heaven out there, somewhere
I thought there's supposed to be a God that cared.
It's painful now but just for awhile
for time will ease the pain somehow.
(Though the thought of your face
still leaves me in a daze.)
I'm tired of playing this game called Pretend.
'Cause it's left me feeling pained and drained.
As i walked that route today
it dwelled on me, it was but a fool's play.
Forget it all, that's what people say.
Just let things be, oh come what may.
And as i pen these words thy day
I pray that i may find my way.
'Cause i know i'll be okay.I've always been and must always be.
Labels: Way out of hell.
ambiguity revealed 5:48 AM
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Thursday, April 10, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
caught between.
If it's anyone i'm gonna confide in on this, it's gonna be the stars at night. "cause they'd never fail to listen. They will never judge my views, they will never laugh at my fears and even though they can't dry my tears they're always there, they don't disappear.
Oh hear my fears and ease my pain, but ease that someone else's first.
Oh hear my fears and ease my pain, but ease that someone else's first.
Labels: retarded.
ambiguity revealed 5:34 AM
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Sunday, April 6, 2008
Sunday, April 6, 2008
tripped, but haven't necessarily fell.
I can't stop thinkin'.
I can't stop lookin'.
I can't stop dreamin'.
I can't stop hoping'.
I can't stop lookin'.
I can't stop dreamin'.
I can't stop hoping'.
Though there's so much more to life than just you.
Labels: ultra busy days ahead.
ambiguity revealed 5:17 AM
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Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
This world i can't seem to understand.
Just when i thought everything's startin' to turn out fine, things take a turn and got worse.
To be frank, the results came as a huge surprise for me. Except that i can't decide if this "surprise" is good or bad. It's depressing to see and hear the things people say. It's scary how hypocritical this world really is. I thought these things wouldn't happen here, i guess no place is perfect.
Like what a friend of mine said, some kinds of happiness is really temporary. It's awesome one moment and the next, it leads to something not so pleasant anymore. I know i was granted my happiness, at the expense of someone else's pain and sorrow. And it's really agonizing because i'd honestly rather be the upset one instead, not because i'm trying to be gracious in any way, but because i know this sorrow will fade but the other person's happiness will last.
Nonetheless, i'd like to thank LesterPhuangKengLee for being there and cheerin' me up when i'm down, despite not feeling fantastic himself. RussellChanFanHe for letting me know i'd always be top in his heart no matter what. ( thank you bestie.) SeanieFooYongDon for makin' me laugh and smile with his lame jokes. BryanLimWeiLoong for um, being more anxious and worried than i am? ClarissaKohChunJie, FelinaTan, NathanDaniel, JasonOngWeiHao, ETHELTANLINGTING, and everyone else who showed care and concern ( of course i won't forget my fantastic class of 08A04 ! ). You all are awesome. And Jiaying, talking to you today really made me feel, safer, in some way. It's good to know that we won't let stupid words that others speak come between us. (: Thanks babe, you're loved!
Unfortunately, there're many others who think otherwise. I don't know how i've offended anyone, but if i did, i'm truely sorry and i did not mean it. However, i will not bother explaining myself because: The people who love you, don't need it. And the people who hate you, won't believe it.
To be frank, the results came as a huge surprise for me. Except that i can't decide if this "surprise" is good or bad. It's depressing to see and hear the things people say. It's scary how hypocritical this world really is. I thought these things wouldn't happen here, i guess no place is perfect.
Like what a friend of mine said, some kinds of happiness is really temporary. It's awesome one moment and the next, it leads to something not so pleasant anymore. I know i was granted my happiness, at the expense of someone else's pain and sorrow. And it's really agonizing because i'd honestly rather be the upset one instead, not because i'm trying to be gracious in any way, but because i know this sorrow will fade but the other person's happiness will last.
Nonetheless, i'd like to thank LesterPhuangKengLee for being there and cheerin' me up when i'm down, despite not feeling fantastic himself. RussellChanFanHe for letting me know i'd always be top in his heart no matter what. ( thank you bestie.) SeanieFooYongDon for makin' me laugh and smile with his lame jokes. BryanLimWeiLoong for um, being more anxious and worried than i am? ClarissaKohChunJie, FelinaTan, NathanDaniel, JasonOngWeiHao, ETHELTANLINGTING, and everyone else who showed care and concern ( of course i won't forget my fantastic class of 08A04 ! ). You all are awesome. And Jiaying, talking to you today really made me feel, safer, in some way. It's good to know that we won't let stupid words that others speak come between us. (: Thanks babe, you're loved!
Unfortunately, there're many others who think otherwise. I don't know how i've offended anyone, but if i did, i'm truely sorry and i did not mean it. However, i will not bother explaining myself because: The people who love you, don't need it. And the people who hate you, won't believe it.
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