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Sunday, April 20, 2008
sick and tired of it all
I can't believe the awful truth. Now, i'm afraid.Of caring, of knowing, of bothering, of loving, of believing, of everything.
If that's what you people perceive me to be, i tell you now: you think way too highly of me. Because, no performer, no actor/actress, has the endurance and capacity to put on an act for such a long period of time. An act that i can gain absolutely nothing out of.
I do not need a reason to give up on faith.
But i must say, i'm thankful. For people that chose to trust and believe in me for who i am. People who remain unwavered by all the unkind words that others have said. People who are always there for me when i need them most. People like Ethel, Charissa, RussellChan, BryanLim, Xiaotian, Demon and others. I swear, i'm truly thankful for people like you guys, people that are truely, TRUE.
I don't know where i can go from here, i don't see any direction i can head towards. Everything seems to be moving so fast, at bullet speed, yet my world seems to have come to a standstill too. I'm unsure of every step i want to take, every move i wanna make. 'Cause it seems no matter how true my intentions, it ends up being viewed in another way.
I don't know. I just hope everyone cheers up soon. Forget all the heartache, all the betrayal, all the pain. I don't know, everyone, cheer up soon. Labels: spare me from this wicked web of lies.
ambiguity revealed 8:16 AM
