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Friday, December 26, 2008
Double Post
Merry Christmas to all the lovely people in the world [:
So i finally overcame my laziness and got myself to blog about the various things that've been going on during this season. I guess i've got so much i wanna say that the thought of it just makes me wanna sleep it off. But, here goes:
Spent the eve of Christmas eve with the girls and boyfriends (and my bestie russell chan) at theresa's place. It started off with abit of a laugh 'cause my dear champion was waiting at me for at the bus stop of chris tan's house, instead of toh's. And he ended up alighting 2 stops earlier after boarding bus 5 'cause he thought he missed the stop. All that drama, apparently we share this terrible communication breakdown syndrome everytime he makes an attempt to come to my area. I thought i was gonna be late 'cause tara said 6pm at tree's but it's taralyn so of course, that meant about 8pm. So Russ, Theresa and I patiently waited for the rest to come over until we couldn't take it anymore 'cause our stomachs were making the weirdest noise by 8pm. The gang finally arrived, with the turkey and all (yay!) and we settled for dinner at about 21 30. Dinner was gooood i loved the beef (thank you so much pohmeng!) I not-so-secretly (because i said it to angeline and poh meng in their faces) think that angeling and poh meng should get married. And honestly, they might very well be the first couple in our group to wed. Hur hur hur but we can never predict the future so let's just leave that for now. We exchanged our little gifts for each other and shared/stole chocolate with/from the boys. We bought them Royce okay, it amazes me that we're so very generous with their presents and not with our own. Hahaha but all was good plus, Chris Toh bought us all donuts when he got back! What a sweetheart he was! (that night luh and it's cause of the donuts HAHA) We proceeded to take about 200 pictures in the same position and pose trying to do a sad face totally killed us 'cause we couldn't stop laughing and the night ended off (for me at least 'caus tara ange and poh meng stayed over at tree's, claire and YT cabbed off) with everyone walking me home. I swear, we were like a bunch of noisy asses terrorising the streets at midnight, i hope we weren't that much of a nuiscence but it's no hamr to have wacky fun once in a while is it (:
Christmas eve was spent catching Bedtime Stories with Jave, then rushing off to Russell's house for the barbecque. We spent the night talking and laughing and drinking and fighting and.... breaking a glass... and very randomly meeting my primary school friends Tiara and Stacey who are now very hot women of my age (dammit! hahaha).
I loved how my christmas was spent with the most important and closest people in my life, it just made me feel so lucky, and most importantly, truely happy. I am however, disappointed that i didn't celebrate christmas with my fmily, simply because we don't celebrate it (not this year anyway). It felt so odd, like there was this huge missing piece through the whole christmas period. It's wasn't something i wanted, it felt awful. But i couldn't just suddenly suggest celebrating christmas and gather everyone around the table to be happy and have a slice of logcake, not when everyone at home's barely on decent speaking terms. It'll be awfully awkward to even crack a smile in my mother's face. I wish i could, and i wish i had. But i didn't. I don't know how to, salvage this already sour relationship i share with my mother without sending her to death in shock. I felt so horrible inside, especially when i looked at my father's back view. He looks so, old. So unhappy, and so different than before. I want to tell them i'm sorry, for all the times i've made them furious and unhappy. I want to scream at them, to stop sulking and being suck a wet blanket everytime. I want us to be a family again, a happy one. I hope it's not too late, to celebrate next Christmas with them.
I love you, Mom and Dad.
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