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Friday, June 27, 2008
Red Alert mode
I was absolutely mean today.
I trapped myself from deep within for for too long. Now all the million and one different emotions i'm feeling are all piling up, pushing against the gates of my heart. Anytime now, those gates will burst open; or will it not?
There are so many words i want to scream out loud for all the world to hear.
All my hopes
All my dreams
All my fears
All my anguish
All my joy
All my pride
All that i love
All that i pray for
All my flaws
All my pain.
I am luckier than many others out there. I should be thankful, I should be content with all that i have around me. But so many moments, i don't know what to feel, how to react. Because I am so tired of always being okay. Everything i do i think you you people first. I don't need recognition, i don't need praise. But all i'm asking is for people to be more conscious about their actions and speech. I'm not even making sense now. I'm just ranting and ranting non stop on this cyberSPACE, literally. What's wrong with me. I need to shape up. I need to find a direction in life. I am missing a few people very very badly at this moment in time. Russell, Bry, Demon, Tara, Ethel.
No, it won't. 'Cause i'll be okay in just awhile. Like how i always am.
ambiguity revealed 6:54 AM
