I must remain SANE. 'Cause if i don't. I'd definitely do some serious damage. I need to STOP. SLOW DOWN. BREATHE. Russell i miss you REAL BAD. Bestie, i need you.
I cannot control my emotions. I keep trying but it becoming really obvious 'cause my moods switch really quickly. I no longer have the stamina to sustain my act. I no longer am able to pretend that everything is perfect. I am freaking afraid that i might just go MAD from all this "chocking down what my heart says" bullshit. Stop telling me that I am strong. Sometimes i don't want to be. Someone once told me " Kim, you're too strong for your own good. You'll see what i mean one day." and now i see it. I see that it's making me go CRAZY. LITERALLY.
I will be fine. I have to be. I have always been, will still be and for ever will be, fine.
