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Sunday, March 30, 2008

To:

To russell: Sorry that i wasn't able to go down on saturday my champion. Thanks for being ever so understanding.

To felina: Thanks for assuring me time and again and makin' me feel better.

To 08A04: For just being the BEST.

To all TSD people: For helpin' me take my mind off stuff and makin' me smile.

To ethel: For understanding and being with me.

To bryan lim: for talkin' with me on the telephone, listening to me utter nonsense for so long and going nuts.

Most of all, to LesterPhuangKengLee: For being so encouraging, for cheering me on, for makin' me smile, for being so nice, for talkin' to me; for being there. for being here.

Thanks people, you're all awesome.

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Thursday, March 27, 2008

shut up if you don't know much.

I ain't sure where i'm headin', really.

bad yesterday, stressful yesterday, better today.

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Unexpected

Oh so bleahlakaboo. I CANNOT BELIEVE, i let all the people talk me into RUNNING FOR COUNCIL.

So with the help of my kindergarden-secondaryschool classmate tay mx, i submitted my.. really really substandard, and short write-up and a really unglamourously candid picture of my in school uni ( by the courtesy of sabrina ) at like 21 55 or sth. Terribly last-min. Oh well, i'll just have to wait and see how it goes.

Met up with RussellChanBestie, TaralynTeoBestfriendforlife, Bryan Lim, Loretta Ho, Sabri, Sarah, Nicole (netball), Sylvia goh and xia xue at MJC today! It was oh-so-good, of course(: and my Dear bestie gave me my surprise today! ( FINALLY, after he told me two weeks ago. ) This really cute bear wearing the I LOVE ACJC shirt. Thanks bestie, thankyouthankyouthankyouLOVE YOU!

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Monday, March 24, 2008

nothing comes free.

TSD today turned out to be more successful than i thought it'd be. Well, mainly because i didn't look as pathetic as i thought i would 'cause the rest all looked about the same; and also because i didn't screw up my presentation on Zeus as i thought i would 'cause i thought i read up too little. But everything turned out fine, great actually.

Maddy was REALLY funny today. She was fretting over not having a Big Dick 'cause she's supposed to be Pan, this God of mountains and what have you. She's half goat, half man, and supposedly has a liking for nymphs.. Hence the big dick. Mr.Shawn was so mean this morning ( but really funny!) when he said to her " You're not gonna come into the class if you don't have a Big Dick!" So for the whole day maddy was thinking of where to get a big dick. HAHAHAHAHA. In the end she drew one out, not that it really looked like a dick anyway ( as according to Shawn cause WE WOULDN'T KNOW .) But yeah, it was hilarious and everyone just kept laughing at her big dick. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Apparently we're supposed to get used to all the dirty talk 'cause Greek gods are really horny and they're always making sexual advancements and references to plenty of things. ( I have problems coming to terms with this. Tsk. )

Anyway, i went as Zeus. It was so last minute all i could manage was to find a white shawl to double as my TOGA. I didn't know what else i could do to enhance the Zeus-Factor, so in the end i made myself a CROWN. My goodness, and i went to shop 'n' save at like 2130 last night just to get sparkling juice for the party. Felina made almond-something-something-with-alot-of-really-good-icing cookies! Supposedly greek cookies but who cares, they were GOOOOD. That babe sure can bake!

Surprised/Celebrated Sham's birthday today as well. Everyone was crowding around trying to hide the cake whilst maddy and i were desperately trying to light the candles, which went out in the end anyway. Sham was so touched she cried! Okay teared, not cried. Tsk, DON'T CRY!, WE LOVE YOU!. (: You know, 08A04's turning out to be quite awesome afterall, as long as everyone tries to mix around with everyone as much as possible.

" Today i walked alone.

It wasn't lonely, but empty.
Wasn't painful, but dreadful.
Today i walked alone.
I saw flashbacks, of what i thought could have been.
I heard laughter, of what i thought might have been.
Today i walked alone.
And i realised, i already miss you so. "

I miss so many people again. Mayves Gan, Gary Chong, Jolyn Teng, Terence Yeo, Tan Qichen, Jonathan Chong, Jacqueline Tan, Mark Tan, Russell Chan ( yes i miss me bestie already) . Tsk. At least i'm gonna see Lorri tomorrow, i hope? And maybe Taralyn too (:

Labels: 'Cause these words are my heart and soul.

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Saturday, March 22, 2008

gratified

Dinner at russell's was good(:

Ryan's nice, he was the one who started the conversations and all ( makin' me feel much better 'cause all was midly awkward at first) and his mommy and grandparents were nice too. Christopher trie to show-off his hokkien by speaking to russell's grandmommy in hokkien, only to find out that she actually speaks english and her hokkien is weird too. HAHAHA CHRISTOPHER! First time i actually really talked to anthony, though we didn't really, REALLY talk that much either. Tsk, one thing i'm abit unused to is that, russell's daddy calls me KIMMY. Or rather, kimmieeeee. Um......

We had steamboat! HOHOHO with good chilly and good shitake mushrooms and good everything cause Ryan, Russell and their parents were serving me 90% of the time and i felt like a princess or something. Russell's daddy also served ice wine! OH-SO-SWEET. Initially, Chris didn't want me to drink, so he said that i should be served water, plain water. But then he gave in. Heehee. Dessert was the brownie that i baked, with triple chocolate & cookies'n'cream & blueberry ice cream that russell's mommy bought. Yeah, i had ALL three flavours of ice cream. Fatso-to-be. (:

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Thursday, March 20, 2008

hyperventilating.

Today marks the end of the most tiring week in JC so far, and the biginning of my ridiculously exhausting/demanding weekend. We've got so much of assignments, especially for TSD ( well yes of course, that's a price to pay for taking TSD. ) Ridiculous. It's okay, i will do it do it do it do it do it all.

Training today was, tiring. ( i'm glad there was training though, always glad to have training.) I'm sunburnt all over my face and my skin is peeling. Plus i have like TWO HUGE and DARN UGLY PIMPLES. So basically, i look like really ugly now. ): it's the stress i tell you, and it's cause of the homework. Still utterly unused to doing all my homework! Hey, don't laugh, it's a big leap for me. And, my sunburns are soooooooooooooooo painfullllllllllllllllllllllllll ):

To my dearest buddy of all : Don't stop smiling, cause the stars are still shining for you; Just like they always will for sure. When you're not feeling at your best, just remember : it'll be over in just awhile, it'll be over in just awhile.

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

FATTY-DAYS.

My binge-to-live period has officially kicked off.

So has my i'msogonnadiefromdoinghomework period. If you were my classmate/ schoolmate/ friend since before JC, you'd probably ( actually, most definitely ) know that i'm NOT a homework person. Homework is...pfft. However, i'm determined to finish my geography tutorials, simply because i do not want to be deadmeat tomorrow. Mug mug mug mug mug.

Casting today was, the fastest ever, and the most, uh, i'msonotusedtoit ever. Actually, i'm pretty thankful i had my dear bus-study-casting-buddy to go down with me. He's so The Buddy to die for, tsk, no no i take that back. But he's definitely The Buddy you'd wanna have. HOHO. (: It's been a running-all-over singapore week so far, and seanie had to joke about "maybe we'd have to go to tuas tomorrow!" Seriously, if it happens, i' just give it a miss. 'Cause i'm SO EXHAUSTED. Haven't had enough sleep ( too much stuff on my mind and i keep having random dreams i still am unable to decipher.) haven't had enough water, haven't had enough rest, haven't had time to read ( the books i wanna read ). Have had too much ot PE, too much of homework, too much of information-bombardment, too much of running around half of singapore.

I also desperately needa go Clothes+Backpack shopping, before i break my shoulder and decide to lock myself at home cause i cannot decide what to wear out. There's this new scent by Victoria's Secret i must get 'cause it's really nice. Need time to go to candy empire to buy the bottle of gummy bears! And with Good Friday 'round the corner, i needa buy easter eggs for all my friends too. Man, hopefully, i survive tonight. I can't wait the the moment i finish my work, so i can just sleep.

Labels: Busy Days.

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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

another side

Thanks to SHP Jacky, i was up all night trying to get talents to go down and audition for a Panasonic VCR advert. WOMAN, YOU OWE ME A HOLIDAY JOB. ( heh heh heh.)

Honetly, seriously, i was and still am really impressed by my dear bus buddy's surprisingly spontaneous shot for the auditions. Frankly, i didn't even think he'd agree to it; i thought you're a shy guy a'lrt! But hell no, he was really spontaneous and actually REALLY GOOD. Had absolutely no idea he's so comically dramatic and good at playing all sorts of characters. Tsk tsk, now i suddenly feel like i don't know my bus buddy as well as i, never thought.... Good effort, i really hope he gets the part! then he'd so OWE ME A TREAT! (:

Plus, i still cannot stop smiling. The actions and things he did today was just SOOO stunning, positively, and i just can't stop laughing at his antics. Tsk, that aside, geography tutorials are killing me. And GP fries human brains. I miss BRYAN LIM, YUKI, ELLY and JUDE. Badly. Guys, we should have another outing soon! 'Cause jude's gonna treat us to something for "not turning up" the other time! HAHAHAHA.

FRIDAY: Dinner at Russell's! and SUNDAY: Celebratory party for film award! YAY!

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Friday, March 14, 2008

Nothing-ness

Six words to sum up how i feel about yesterday's training : I hope i make the team. Suddenly i'm stuck with playing shooter, hmm? But it's good, i guess. maybe.

I am SO grateful that russell chan fan he is my bestguyfriend. 'Cause he's probably the only bestguyfriend sweet enough to wait for an hour, for me to finish training. Buy me tausar bun 'cause he knows i'll be hungry, and take a walk with me to the most random of places. I'm glad we took a walk, a long walk. (: Thank you, my champion.

Labels: a platonic friendship, is the best.

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008

" I hold it true, whate're befall;
I feel it, when i sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all."

-Alfred Tennyson

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Monday, March 10, 2008

Time i've been waitin' for so long

" 'Cause even when by the beach, it's your heart i'm tryin to reach. "

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Friends

Had an awesome weekend and an awesome TODAY!

Initially i thought saturday's training was gonna be sheer horror 'cause we're back with missy elliot, but it turned out fine in the end. Strict and harsh as she might be, she really is a fantastic coach ( some facts just cannot be denied! ). The only weird/scary thing that happened was that she RANDOMLY made me play goal-attack which is like totally "whathewhotheME?! HAHA?" FYI, i'm a mid-fielder, never played shooter before. Man, it was an experience, but it was good. (: Guess she does know best in a really weird way.

Met up with aladdin mok after twenty gigollion years for lunch, movie and random stuff. We actually went to the chinese temple near bugis. to the TEMPLE, and he taught me how to pray with the sticks thing, you know the one you hafta shake till it drops. Aladdin, if you ever read this i just wanna say thanks for makin' my day, and if you should ever go, leave to go elsewhere, you'll be dearly missed.

Was pretty upset today though, that PAE 08A05's sentosa trip was cancelled last minute. But it was for the best since not everyone could make it and the weather wasn't awesome either. Depressing rain we call it. We did meet up for dinner in the end, and hell was it awesome to see Elly and Yuki again after so long! Miss them so much! As usual Elly was "noise" of the party and we did stupid stuff at TOYS'R'US. REALLY stupid stuff. but hey, we've all got a kid in us still a'lrt and once in a while, ( quite often actually), we go pretty wild. All in all, it was good. Meeting up with aladdin, elly and yuki definitely made my weekend great. (:

Labels: please don't walk away and, please tell me you'll stay.

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Friday, March 7, 2008

thoughts

" If you're not too long, i'd wait for you."

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Thursday, March 6, 2008

Twist.

" Gather ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old time is still a flying.
And this same flower that smiles today,
Tomorrow will be dying."

-Dead poet's society

Things are beginning to look up recently. Or at least i hope so, pretend so, would like to think so. Seeing russell, lorri, tara, bryan and all the rest of THE people always makes my day, as it did today. (: Finally got my big hug from Russell, Lorri and Tara! Though it was pretty awkward being the " single blade of green grass amongst the sea of blue" it was awesome watching the VS versus Greenview secondary soccer match, FINALS! And guess what, VS is second, again. Tsk, feel kinda bad for them 'cause it's the 5th time, and they lost it at the penalty kick AGAIN. Cruel facts.

Things will get better, if i just ignore her and everything else that's makin' life lousy.

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Wednesday, March 5, 2008

A lilttle bit of everything.

I like taking silent, slow walks.
It gives me time and space to think, to wonder, to ponder. This year, the playground seems to be The place to be. It's so near everything, yet so distant. Sometimes, i feel as if i'm watching my life story from an audiences point of view. I try to modify the storyline, but to no avail. Things just happen. Thoughts just occur, emotions just flow, quite subconsciously i must say. It's interesting, fascinating, how one can't control her own mind. Heart over mind?

This is for all the TPJC NETBALLERS! Good game, nice fight, well done for the ISSAC games! (: You know, who cares what others say, they might think they're ALL THAT, but they're not. And we just have to keep workin' together, as a team, i'm sure we'd be an awesome team. I mean, we ALREADY ARE! Honestly, you guys ( the J2s mainly) are the ones that made me wanna stay in TPJC. You guys showed me how sincere, how true and how REAL the people here are. And for that, i love you guys, just the way you are. Even though sometimes you guys go real crazy!

8A04 is comin' along fine too (so far so good). There's like a whole bunch of nice people, actually everyone is nice. Just haven't gotten to know everyone yet. Hahahaha. March holidays are just around the corner! M-arch hols is for, MUGGING, MEETING UP with friends and Mcdonalds. HEEEE.

Hey russell (bestie), if you're readin this i just wanna say, i'm REALLY thankful for having a bestie like you. You're always there to cheer me up in one way or another. The words you speak and the things you type, makes so much of difference. You're amazing, a blessing an angel sent from heaven. You're right, who cares what other people think or say? It's not important. So long as i've got you, i know i'd be fine. 'Cause you're my champion, my champion. Thanks for standing up for me when others put me down, and for showing me that i'm special just the way i am. For all the times you let me hit, bite, pinch and throw my tantrums when i felt lousy. For all the beautiful quotes and words of encouragement. Thanks for being a friend so true. Thankyouthankyouthankyousodarnmuch.

I'm not leaving out the others. Clarissa Koh, Bryan Lim, Maddy, Seanie Foo, Taralyn. Thanks for being my source of comfort and strength. Claire, you listened to my bullshit and held me when i cried. Bryan, you told me stuff you felt i should know and made me see the light. Maddy, you gave me advice and talked with me through the night. Seanie, you showed me concern and taught me not to hide. Taralyn, you're just always there. You guys are really the ones that make life worth living for. I mean it.

'cause i like it when you're just close by, and when you sometimes hold me tight.

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