Spaces in between;

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Saturday, August 30, 2008

So this is how it goes.

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I'm sorry, and thank you. Thank you all.

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Friday, August 29, 2008

Just a thought.

This is how the world is connected.
People to people to people to people to people to people to people.
And this is why the "Broken Telephone" game, is not a stupid game at all. One wrong word, the wrong tone, or saying nothing at all, there goes. It's over.

Happy Teacher's Day.

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Hang in there!

These cards i drew.

I miss playing NETBALL so much ): I feel so deprived and lethargic ever since training stopped about a month or more ago. I miss debating with the Seriousplay debators. It used to be so much fun ( and pressure ) debating against them with Loke. I miss hangin' out with Jun, Suren, Demon, Tara, Lorrie, and tons and tons and tons of people but all that, will have to wait.

Promos are freaking 9 days away. Heh, my lucky number 9 indeed. Things are becoming increasingly frustrating lately especially with everyone's patience running low and emotional stability fluctuating like Zimbabwe's currency does. Everything's just rush rush rush rush rush ain't got no time to stop pause rest breath or think. Teacher's day is coming and i desperately want to go back to my secondary school ( Temasek Secondary ) to visit my teachers who have been so tolerant ( mostly ) for the past 4 years. I miss them, and i can't wait to tell them JC IS NUTS. Ain't even got time to go shisha with nice people who invited me to go along. Times like this; exasperating. Thankfully, and finally for that matter, i ain't gotta go to school tomorow 'cause it's E-learning day.
Not that i like to complain but frankly speaking i think 1 day of e-learning isn't enough. Not because i'm an IT geek or mug-like-crazy-nerd, but simply because going to school all the time not doing much at all is such a waste of time and staying at home to study is ironically more productive and constructive. My brain's not working. The whole TSD concept for Scene 4 is still stuck in my head trying to develop itself into something spectacular which might just be able to bring our group's performance up to a higher level. I'm also praying that Javier won't crash tomorrow during his driving test. Actually i'm not so worried about that, i'm praying that he passes. Too many snippets of random thoughts and ideas hatching in my brain. The result of multi-tasking. I need to sleep. It seems to me that even my sentences and in fact my entire blog post at this point in time is extremely incoherent and nonsensical.

I can't wait for Sunday. Even though i don't exactly dig local music, Baybeats and Ben & Jerry's with the boys will definitely do some good to my mental health. Well, What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger so i'll just suck it all up like a good lil' kid and force my ass to sit through promos. After all, it'll be over soon enough. ( ah yes i'm sure. )

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Complete.

And it was all i ever needed to know.
And it is all i ever need to know.
Thank you.

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Thursday, August 21, 2008

Empty?

That's how i draw my tree.
And according to Ethel, i'm psychotic.

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I played tennis today.
But all i could think of,
was you.

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

Just maybe

Temasekians at TPJC!

I miss so many things.
Temasek Secondary.
Mayves
MingXun
Terence
Jonathan
HengXinyi
IsabellKoh
Jason
ZuCheng
Yuanhong
Jacqueline
Actually everyone in 4Nurture.

I miss playing netball, alot.
Paetoque ( idk how to spell it. )
Wakeboarding
Ice-skating
Running free in the rain
Eating ice-cream on cold cold days.
Watching the stars at night
Watching the sunrise
and the sunset.
Counting the number of green/blue cars that go by.
Watching movies with A.M.
Playing netball
Playing netball
Playing netball
DEBATING WITH LOKE IN TMS.
SERIOUSPLAY DEBATE.

and,
I miss you.

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Monday, August 11, 2008

Stop and Stare

This is why studying out's always fun (:

I'll close my eyes,
I'd shut my ears
Forget those fears
And dry these tears.

I must learn, to listen to my heart sometimes.

To run away;
Or stop and stay?
Tomorrow i may
But not today.

And choose what i want, over what's right.

May all that noise
Drown out my voice.
The voice inside,
That i'm trying to hide.

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Friday, August 8, 2008

tirmek

I saw you face,
In a crowded place.
And i don't know what to do.
But all i know is that,
I've missed you.

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Opressing Silence.

Leave a comment/tag here and I'll..

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ/Blog.

26 Random Facts about Me.

1. I like Red/ Turquoise, and weirdly matched colours.
2. I'm almost always hungry.
3. I'm only truely myself in front of about, 9-13 poeple in the world.
4. Most people don't know me.
5. I do not dread/fear death, in fact i wouldn't mind it occurring.
6. I love walking/running in the rain.
7. I think GP is a ridiculous subject that underestimates most people's intelligence.
8. Yes, i do like receiving flowers.
9. 9 is my favourite number, so is 26.
10. I prefer odd numbers to even numbers because even numbers just seem too, perfect.
11. I like playing with rice and green/red beans.
12. I have 2 bestfriends, Russell Chan and Taralyn Teo.
13. I actually prefer being silent than talkative. ( there's a reason why i'm always noisy, and only a rare few can tell why. )
14. I like writing, literally.
15. My birthday falls on the 26th of January.
16. I may be dumb, but i'm not stupid.
17. I hate waitng, even when it's for red lights to turn green. I am, however, extremely patient ( case-by-case-basis.)
18. You can never know enough about someone even in just a lifetime.
19. I know what i want, but i can't bring myself to say it.
20. Sometimes, just sometimes, i wonder if i'm still alive.
21. I used to watch the sunset. Now, the sun never rises.
22. I, am quite sure that i, do not possess the ability and capacity to Love anyone.
23. I want to run away.
24. Because of you, my life's not even mine.
25. I love subway cookies.
26. I never tell the truth, yet, i always do. heh. Go figure.

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Monday, August 4, 2008

A year back

Our shadows.
I miss my two bestfriends real bad. I was actually doing math, 'cause i have a test tomorrow and i'm so sick of failing and failing and failing. Then, I suddenly remembered how Russell kept nagging at me to complete all my homework especially my math last year before o levels, he wanted me to do well that's why. And i remembered how he was there to catch me when i fell, when i strained my thigh muscles real bad during PE and couldn't even walk down the stairs properly. He just randomly appeared out of no where when i fell, and he caught me and he held me and he didn't let me fall. I know that i can always count on russell for sure no matter what happens. No matter what happens. I remembered how we used to take long walks, sometimes after my netball training, sometimes just randomly. We'd walk up slope, down slope straight roads and around many bends until we reach a large grassland where we stopped to look at the clear blue sky. We'd take random photographs of each other, mainly of me by him and we'd talk about everything we wanted to, everything we needed to. Russ, thank you so much for always being around, you're truely my champion and yes, i'll always be your beautiful inspiration, bestie (:

Taralyn Taralyn Taralyn. I miss Tara so much as well. We've come a long way since primary shcool and i know life'd have been enitrely different if i didn't have tara in it. This babe is crazy, and she's definitely the bestest bestfriend anyone can ask for. I remember how we used to go shopping at tm cause we couldn't really go elsewhere ( 'cause we were TOO YOUNG! ) Heh, we'd talk about all the silly things like boys. I grew up with you Tara, and i'll always be grateful for having you as my bestfriend. You're always around to listen when i'm upset, you understand when i needed you to and you forgave me for all my mistakes unconditionally. I LOVE YOU TARA.

Life's been crazy, and it's people like them, and Ethel, Suren, Jun, and Donna that really make life so much more bearable. I'm lucky.

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Sunday, August 3, 2008

Day out.

A Picture of my group as promised (:

I haven't been bloggin', I know. I've been too LAZY to. Nothin much's been going recently actually, but there's been so much to do, and too little time.

Light
Enclosed
Entrapped
Strangled
Struggled
Liberated
Weathered
Withered.
I am; a puppet of my own intelligence
I am; a puppet of my own perception.

Ended up hangin' out with my good gracious yesterday afternoon. It was hilarious. Jun to Suren: "See, 'cause of you i cannot sleep! And you are sleeping?". Hahaha the guys are really funny. Sat at starbucks for quite sometime doing nothing much in particular, we were supposed to be studying but do note that the main word here is supposed. Jun is such a natural when it comes to jokes. " How how what to drink what to drink? I just don't want anything to do with chocolate! " x 9837498412, " Okay, I think i'll get a chocolate frappe." (So much for not wanting to do with chocolate. I ordered a Java chip, and when he finally reached the counter and the lady asked him what he'd like to have, this is what he said. " Uh, Java Chip Tall." I swear, that guy has problems making up his mind. But he is a very good mind reader, which gets pretty scary sometimes. In the midst of all the laughter, I realized that i was actually watching the crowd around me, and the crowd outside the windows. They came and left, a few stayed for awhile and even fewer stayed for long. It suddenly came to my mind how it was like in life. We go through the path we have to so quickly just to get to our destination, but how many of us actually bother to pause and look around, and enjoy the journey instead of rushing through it. How many little things in life have we missed out on when we blindly head towards the end. At the end of the day, maybe we'll all reach our destination, but how many of us actually went through a Journey to get there?

Sometimes, people tell me i think too much.
I had a nice long walk. (:

Today's the second day of SINGFEST 2008! Except that i'm not there simply because i have too much work to do ): It's okay, BAYBEATS are comin' soon, 30th August! (:

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